Depressed or Oppressed

This past year has been my hardest, trying to adapt to the world that needed one to be independent and strong.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m all of those things but because I want to be strong I tend not to deal with issues as they arise but I usually tuck them away safely and hope they don’t appear. I usually dealt with my academics that’s it.

My social life is rather sketchy but I have pretty good friends who give great moral support.

With everything almost going right,   time and again I would feel overwhelmed. Either the day would be too happy or too sad. Couldn’t deal with those sudden changes. Simple tasks began to weigh on me. Didn’t know what was the cause and I wasn’t intending on finding it. Just like all the other problems I tucked it away.

But now I would have repeated episodes of me loosing my grip on reality and not knowing what to do. Not feeling emotions began to be a regular thing. “Don’t feel it, conceal it”.
Whatever was going on, I made it a priority to keep it a secret. I made occasional excuses like, “I don’t get that chapter” or “what’s up with the weather these days?”

I had all those emotions in a jar and I being a little person in the jar trying to get out. Drowning in my own problems, what a mess I made. Was I depressed or oppressed?

It was time to deal with them. So I did it the only way I know how. The use of pen & paper. Wrote everything I thought was a problem and saw a solution & what I wanted to come out of it. You can say after that session I was feeling much better.

Those pages with my stories I burned. Appearantly its supposed to be therapeutic. Now I’m happier and resolving any problem I might have now.

The only thing

Sex. The one thing that can drive humans to lie, cheat and hurt one another. I mean how can one activity cause so much chaos and so much pain?

Appearantly sex was to reproduce/multiply the population but now its been turned into sports of unfair play, not realising that its the root cause of most problems in society. And because of sex we either getting infected and the increase in the number of unwanted pregnancies leading to further problems.

A friend of mine compares sex with ones desire to appease their craving for food. He says that of one is hungry, one must eat. Hence if you desire sex, one must have it. He is shocked at how society reacts to the sexual desires but wouldn’t blink an eye if they were craving something sweet.

That made me think about the changed times. Society and it’s beliefs. One can’t help but wonder and question some of the morals we uphold so high. Let me throw a scenario your way.

The community prides in a young girl that is still a virgin but will scold one that isn’t, insulting them saying they are a disgrace to the family. But when the young girl bares a child and becomes a mother, praises are sang, saying she reached “motherhood”. Why is it that the idea of the young girl losing her her virginity by having sex but but using the same process and bares a child, its a blessing?!

Talk about serious contradictions within the society, just as much in our own land. One thing in particular, the “right” to life and yet the legalisation of abortion… I rest my case.

Look at the scenario again, and think about it. Form your own opinion. Hopefully society will change its view on the activity that many can’t name or even speak of. The mere mention of the word makes people flinch. Let’s shed some light on sex.

Why I started blogging

Honestly I don’t know why, but a friend told me that I should start a blog.

So 9months into it and I’m not if am doing it right. I started this blog as a platform to voice my opinion. I mean that’s all that’s to it.

I am trying to paint out a picture, of how my eyes see this world. At times bad, sometimes good. People may not always agree with what I say but its my view.